Don't stop 'til you get enough

Random thoughts on my happy friday:

-It doesn't take much for me to have a good day like today...drink all my water, eat healthy foods and get a good workout in, I'm happy

-Very happy my CT scan was stable, with one nodule even shrinking. So happy I didn't have to get a needle stuck in my side this week and even more happy I can use my PTO hours for vacay.

-Wondering when postings on FB of friends having babies will not make me cry and feel sorry for myself. It only lasts for a few minutes but it's still no good.

-What made the nodule shrink? Possibly my addition of dandelion leaves to my diet, or my little obsession with Bikram.....Maybe I should stop wondering why and just say thank you.

-Hummus, I love you, why did it take 27 years for us to meet.

-Is the sun making the scar on my chest darker because EVERYONE noticed and decided to loudly ask about it this week at work.

-I feel like I have a new dog because I shaved him. Once a long hair chi, now a short hair chi.

Getting ready to go to a birthday party. I hope they have a lot of Michael playing tonight since it's the 1 year anniversary. Love Love Love you MJ!!!!

Galveston

I had a great weekend in Galveston with Mel. Not the most beautiful beach I have ever seen, but I always have a great time when I go. Especially this time. I didn't think that at 27 I would have so much fun playing in brown Gulf water, but I found myself not wanting to get out of the ocean. I let Mel talk me into going way to deep (right below chest level is a little much for me) but I really had fun with all the big waves that day and letting him "save" me when they were huge and went over my head. We enjoyed yummy seafood at Benno's, twice it was so good, and enjoyed a delicious brunch at the Galvez. It was a great weekend that I will always remember. I also wore a swimsuit!! First time in 7 years wearing one in public. I chose a skirted piece so that my bottom-where the tumor was removed-wouldn't be so noticeable. It felt great. I decided a few weeks ago that after all I've been through I'm done being scared of 2 things....swimsuits and horses (random I know but they are like huge dogs). I've been through a lot scarier and I'm not letting my own thoughts stop me from doing things anymore. I learned 2 very important things while people watching in Galveston....

1. NOBODY has a perfect body.

2. No one is looking at me.

I'm not sure where I got this perfect body image from. Every time I thought of wearing a swimsuit all of the amazing bodies were walking around in my head. So. Not. Reality. And no one cares or is looking at me. My scars and deformity are noticeable yes, but only if you are really looking, and no one was. They were doing what I was doing, enjoying the great company they were with.

I have a CT scan tomorrow. Hopefully everything is stable and I will not need the RFA procedure but if not the procedure is scheduled for Wednesday and I will stay in the hospital for one night then be released.

Off to enjoy my yummy veggie dinner of kale, peas, okra and brown rice.

Blessings.

Always making faces in my pictures....

I forgot my lomos at home : ( I used the lomo effect on picnik.com

I want my weekend back!

I had a great Memorial weekend. The 3 days off were much needed. My days were filled with cooking, resting and movie watching. Mel and I attempted to go to Keyma on Saturday but he was on called and got paged so we only had enough time to quickly pick the chihuahua up and head back to the city.

Right after brunch at Baba Yega

And the weekend also included "someone" getting a hair cut. Needless to say he wasn't happy about the trip to Petco, but at least this time I wasn't called in early to pick him up for aggressive behavior towards the clippers and staff.

My doctor has decided to take a more aggressive approach against those spots in my lungs. He wants me to go for an assessment for RFA-radiofrequency ablation. Basically a needle like probe is put into the lung and the spot is burned. It doesn't sound fun and I think I'm officially stalling now in getting it done. Maybe in a few weeks. Maybe.

Is everyone pregnant? I think so. My friends cat even just had kittens. It's not that I want a baby right now, it's the thought of possibly never being able to have one that gets to me. Facebook is hard to look at these days. every time I get on someone is pregnant, someone is in labor, someone just had a baby.... It's not that I'm jealous or want to take this joy away from anyone, it's not even close to that. I just hope to have that same happiness too one day.

This time last year I felt like everyone was getting married, and now a year later I'm happy and dating a great guy. No wedding bells anytime soon, but I get the lesson.... things will, if they are supposed to, work themselves out.