Thursday, June 17, 2010

Galveston

I had a great weekend in Galveston with Mel. Not the most beautiful beach I have ever seen, but I always have a great time when I go. Especially this time. I didn't think that at 27 I would have so much fun playing in brown Gulf water, but I found myself not wanting to get out of the ocean. I let Mel talk me into going way to deep (right below chest level is a little much for me) but I really had fun with all the big waves that day and letting him "save" me when they were huge and went over my head. We enjoyed yummy seafood at Benno's, twice it was so good, and enjoyed a delicious brunch at the Galvez. It was a great weekend that I will always remember. I also wore a swimsuit!! First time in 7 years wearing one in public. I chose a skirted piece so that my bottom-where the tumor was removed-wouldn't be so noticeable. It felt great. I decided a few weeks ago that after all I've been through I'm done being scared of 2 things....swimsuits and horses (random I know but they are like huge dogs). I've been through a lot scarier and I'm not letting my own thoughts stop me from doing things anymore. I learned 2 very important things while people watching in Galveston....

1. NOBODY has a perfect body.

2. No one is looking at me.

I'm not sure where I got this perfect body image from. Every time I thought of wearing a swimsuit all of the amazing bodies were walking around in my head. So. Not. Reality. And no one cares or is looking at me. My scars and deformity are noticeable yes, but only if you are really looking, and no one was. They were doing what I was doing, enjoying the great company they were with.

I have a CT scan tomorrow. Hopefully everything is stable and I will not need the RFA procedure but if not the procedure is scheduled for Wednesday and I will stay in the hospital for one night then be released.

Off to enjoy my yummy veggie dinner of kale, peas, okra and brown rice.

Blessings.



Always making faces in my pictures....

I forgot my lomos at home : ( I used the lomo effect on picnik.com


2 comments:

Obsessedwithlife said...

So proud of you and happy for you!! You look so sexy in your suit! Flaunt it ;).

Good luck with your CT. I got my port out today after having it for 7 years! Crazy...

Love you,
Rach

Alli said...

Wishing you all the best with your CTScan....Sounds like you had a great weekend. Alli ..xx